on a side note, wanna say that i really enjoyed in time at the 2E’09 chalet! HA. had fun crapping around, had fun with my friends, had fun with fun and funny people, had fun playing and talking with them, had fun trying the night walk, had fun laughing at people, had fun with people close to my heart, anddd i had fun with a bunch of friends that makes up a part of me!

we are meant to be victorious, we cannot accept the fact that we keep failing! we got to be discontented of it! cos we are meant to be victorious! we got to dare to dream, dare to reach out, dare to try, dare to fail. when we fail, we shall fail forward. we will grow as we fail and stand stronger! cos victory is mine to claim.

every happenings has its reason; has its purpose.

so sit back to see what are they.

and i’m speaking of this conclusion upon the observation of my own life.

something that i was rather assured about.

we can move the mountain, we can part the sea.

we can cause the blind to see, the deaf to hear and the mute to speak.

but if we have not loved God, we have done nothing.

i fulfilled all my to-dos for these weeks, i am and can be faithful with the things that i had; the people that God entrusted to be. but through this period time, i have yet to love God more. i had done nothing.

here’s my reason to this statement.

we can fulfill all the things in the world. but if we haven’t love God, means the things that i do isn’t overflowing from the relationship that i have with him. hence, it will not sustain us. because our relationship is the MOST important factor of our life. actually, our relationship with this awesomely gracious God is the reason to our hope and our life. its what Jesus died for.

We can do many many things, go through many many processes and testings in our life, but haven’t love God more. we have done nothing in the eyes of God; which is simply, we had done nothing. as we failed to love God more, we fail to bring our heart closer towards him. which is what he desires.

so.the main point? we got to bring ourselves, our hearts closer to God, we got to love God more through the good and bad times in which we will be in at different points of life.

please don’t finish your life, missing the point all together.

now, have you loved God more than before?

have been very tired recently. programmes one after another for the past weeks. as events just pile up in your life. its time to stop our lives and allow God to search through our hearts. the reason behind your doings, the purpose behind every events. the lesson to the existence of today.its time to allow God to reveal the hidden things in our hearts. i dont know whether you have faced this fatigue in your life. but if you have, its time for a evaluation. its time to take a step back in our lifestyle and see how am i as a being.the word is being, not leader, not titles, not position. But being. Our being holds a greater significance to God than the doing, its the being that matters at the end of the day. more than ministry, how we have grown as a being will sustain us to the end, not leadership. we may not be a leader forever but our relationship with God doesn’t end there. all in all, the idea is : “its time to see how have we grown as a Child of God to bring a smile to our Father’s face.”  so, child of God; all of you,  how have you grown up to be a better person today?

I know He is the beginning, so why do I worry about the end?
I know He is the creator, so why do I wonder who will destroy?
I know He has forgiven me, so why can’t I forgive myself?
I know He is a healer, so why do I speak of sickness?
I know He can do all things, so why do I say I can’t?
I know He will protect me, so why do I fear?
I know He will supply all my needs, so why can’t I wait?
I know He is my strength and my salvation, so why do I feel weak?
I know that everything and everyone has a season, so why when
someone’s season is over do I weep instead of rejoice?
I know He is the right way, so why do I go the wrong way?
I know He is the light, so why do I choose to walk in darkness?
I know that whatever I ask of GOD, GOD will give me,
so why am I scared to ask?
I know tomorrow is not promised, so why do I put off
for tomorrow what I can do today?
I know that the truth shall make me free, so
why do I continue to lie?
I know He gives us revelation, knowledge and
understanding, so why do I lean on my own understanding?
I know I should live in the spirit as well as walk in the spirit,
so why do I choose to live in the spirit but walk in the flesh?
I know that when praises go up, blessings come down,
so why do I refuse to praise Him?
I know I am saved, so why do I refuse the word He has given me?
I know He has a plan for me, so why am I rushing it because
I am eager to do His will, when it is His time not my time?

i know my life is in his hands, so why am i dwelling in them when its over?

i know people will fail at some point of their lives, so why am i furious when they do?

HAHA. back from my group’s little outing and from the overnight that i had ytd.

honestly, after staying at Jas’ house with songlin, fangkai, kai long and Jasmine. i seriously think i know nothing about what’s happening around me regarding my school friends. HAHA. well, it means that i have to grow to be more balenced in my lifestyle. so ” do ask me out more often.” HAHA.

I’m in the World, but i will not be of the World. Influencing my friends with my life is what i want to fulfill, sounds scary though. HAHA. but I LOVE IT.

so funny, i seriously believe that i got to continue to grow up with my age to ensure i’m not a frog in the well, out there in the world, with new environment and circle of friends.

manage to review my previous blog and i found something that i once again found amazingly true;

Your ability to trust will bring you on the next step of life according to God’s amazing plan.

so, have you started to trust in the Lord’s amazing plan?(:

enjoy today:D

manage to meet yongkang to discuss about wfl, something new to me.

which i enjoy doing. HAHA.

and, through the hours and minutes, God really renews my covenant with Him.

how he assured me of the sembawang land ahead of me.

to know how much i really need him to guide me.

well, after which i manage to talk to Yongen. i really really enjoy the time chit chatting. HAHA.

and well, the commitment to finish what i’ve started. the commitment to invest in things and people till the end.

and that..

that is my commitment.